in less than 24 hours....

...I'll be just finishing up day one of the Amazing Encounter retreat.!!!

I'm so freaking excited. I want to throw up!!! M came to my office today because he needed to interview me for a paper he has to write for school. After the interview we started to talk about the Sat night prayer service (my favorite prayer service of the whole weekend) and we went over to the church to see what needed to be done for Fri (checking outlets and what not) and also to look at the Baptismal font at the "back" of the church. Walking out of the church, I was talking to him about some things that needed to be taken care of. I said to him "When you guys get here I need N to make sure he finds an alb that fits for tomorrow night." We both stopped, looked at each other and just said "WHOA...tomorrow night!!!"

We've been waiting so long for this to happen, it just all seems so surreal. Thanks be to God I am calm. Even the littlest things that would set me off into stress mode, are not even bothering me. I know it will all fall into place.

YAY!!! I'm so excited for this weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll try to post tomorrow night.

Hello Out there

I've had quite a few visitors as of late....Sure wish people would leave comments to say hi or "Your blog sucks" Or "Hey I found your blog because so and so said it was good, or that it sucked" Anyway...LOL (hey according to my records someone from Pleasanton has been viewing my page for a good 5 minutes. Hopefully you've been entertained!!!)

Went to Disneyland today. Good times. Especially when you get to take a 2 yr old!!! 2 year olds have quite the life. They get Ice cream "with sprinkles", they get held when they want to be held, Characters go out of their way to make them smile, AND they get to take naps in the car on the way home. Life is so good for them.

No I am not complaing that my life sucks. It's actually very good. I'm pumped about this upcoming retreat weekend (Just found out that 4 people from St. Matthew's are coming to help with the Sat Prayer service), and I am excited for my trip afterwards. (D's neices got straight A's this past quarter and like a buttload of awards, so we will be celebrating).

I spent a good 45 mins praying before the blessed Sacrament today. Felt good to meditate and get stuff off my chest. I just felt such relief!!!! YAY for Prayer!!!!! One more day off and then it's back to retreat prep. Wow I am even looking forward to a 14 hour workday on Friday!!!!!

MAN!!!!

I wrote a long post and I lost it....!@#$% blogger grrrrrrrrrr

Tempted

I won't lie, part of me is tempted to post really mean things about the person mentioned below...but I am above that. Part of me is tempted to get rid of this blog, but you know what? I am not giving into that. This is my blog. I can post what I want, I can feel what I want, etc.

So this post is all about me!!!!!! I am happy, I am satisfied, i have spoken to numerous priests about my past, and while I recognize where I regretfully made some decisions, i don't regret who I hhave become thus far as a result of said decisions. They've helped me grow. Do I regret the paths I have gone down? Some yes because I abandoned who I truly was. But, you live and learn and I have many people who love me and NO ONE except God alone can dictate how I feel, and NO ONE will let me feel self conscipus about what I have posted.

The end

Please.....

...You know who you are.You've been reading my blog. I don't know how you accidentally stumbled across this blog. So you read my regrets? BFD!!!! How many times did you tell me that you had "made a mistake". We all make them. And why is it any of your business anyway? You should be living your life, not following me around trying to find out how I am living mine.

So please, if you must do anything with your time, find someone else to "check up on" and please just leave me alone.